“Society is a playwright so proud of his work that even the slightest deviation from the script drives him to retaliate with the force of a natural disaster, judging blindly and killing all in his path.” — Tommy MaverickMy Productions
I think I’m getting better. I feel like I’m happier and more able to see the positives in the circumstance that I’m in. I’m single and attractive and making progress toward my life goals. People are starting to notice me in all sorts of ways.
I have these opportunities too… I really hope they work out well. I want to make some motherfucking moves.
I spent too much time crying, but maybe that’s what I needed. I used to be afraid of failure, but now every failure shoots me off into the next realm of space like a rocket. I didn’t win the Discovery Project, so I mixed and mastered three of my tracks and created 5 hours of DJ sets. I’ve got something for every situation now. My originals are gonna be dropped at SWL next week, and I’m stoked for people to hear.
More exciting news too, but I’m saving that for when it happens. No ruining the surprise ;)
Even though you’re not mine.
I found the funniest picture right now that you’d laugh your ass off if you saw it. I instantly wanted to text you about it and send you the picture, but then I remembered that I can’t. Haha it feels so strange being separated from the person you’ve talked to every day for the past two years and feel you know better than anyone else. You know me better than anyone else… And I don’t want it to change. I just want us to be fucking together for ever.
I’m really scared.
I’d do anything for you. I’ll even be someone that I’m not just to see you smile. I’ll make sacrifices for you. I’ll break promises that I made to myself. I’ll wish for your happiness. I’ll spend most of my spending money on you. I’ll show you what really matters in the world. I’ll try to show you the things that I love and tell you why I love them. I’ll do my best to move you with my words. I’ll be there for you when you’re crying. I’ll be there to cheer you up and make you laugh. I’ll buy you things I hate because I love you. I’ll tell you what you could be at your best and I’ll show you how to get there.
All you have to do is care about my feelings. All you have to do is love me. All you have to do is make me feel like I’m supported… When you do those three things, I’m going to be at peace with you and willing to do everything I’ve listed above.